UDS

Ugly Duckling Syndrome:

1. Beautiful people who didn't get pretty until high school or later, and were nice because they were ugly. The niceness carries over through life.

2. A girl who grew up all her life unattractive until high school or college when she then "blossomed" into a really hot girl. Unlike naturally pretty girls though, her self-esteem is pretty low (as it'll almost permanently be for life) but, she has a good heart, personality, and soul because that's all she could afford to have when she was unattractive. Also, any girl with UDS, will go out with any guy cause to her "looks doesn't matter. As long as they have a good sense of humor." As long as they never realize that they're a ten, they'll always be humbled and down to earth.

3. A person who did not develop fully (therefore making them ugly) up until highschool or later and becomes pretty and they are really nice and have low self-esteem.

(these lovely definitions are from my friends at Urban Dictionary)

So, I feel like this post is going to be pretty honest. Number one, I have to admit that for the most of my life, I have felt unattractive. I'm not uncomfortable with that. It's a part of my life. You see your friends having crushes on boys and going through the high school boyfriend dramas and you've never even had a boy so much as look your way twice.

But you get used to it. You find your romantic outlets reading books or watching chick flicks, and you hope that someday you will find someone who thinks you are amazing, no matter what.

I guess it would be cool if I could say that happened.

It hasn't.

But I was watching "Shallow Hal" the other day and the guy on there (George from Seinfeld... I don't remember his name on the movie) was talking about "Ugly Duck Syndrome."

And I was like, I'm pretty sure I have that.

I mean, not like in the "Wow, I am SUPER HOT now" kind of a way, but sometimes I still feel like this girl:


And honestly, it doesn't feel that different from this girl:


I know... super hot, right?

So I guess what I'm saying is that even though I feel more attractive now that I've become more comfortable with myself, I'm still Anna.

Sometimes I do still slip into the whole self-esteem issue, but I think it helps that I've always known I've had intrinsic worth--that my value was never solely based on what I looked like.

I don't really have a solid conclusion that I've come to. Those are just some of my thoughts.

One thing I do think I've realized as I've matured a little is that I don't have to wait for that person who thinks I'm amazing. I already found that person. It's me.

Guess what? I'm amazing. And pretty. And, thank heavens I wasn't a beautiful teenager. I don't think I'd have nearly as much personality now, anyway.