update: nervous breakdown

You know... my motto is usually "change is good!" or "I love change!"

But when it comes down to it, change is always hard. No matter who you are.

I have a lot of changes happening in my life. My life pretty much since high school (which is like a forgotten dream now) has been in Provo. And I love Provo. There are people I love very much in Provo. I have walked through the streets, I have run through the streets! I have had romantic, adventurous, and even heart-breaking episodes in this very same town. I have truly grown into adulthood here.

And so it will be hard to leave. It has been so dear to me.

But it is time.

I was reading an article by Elder Steven E. Snow called "Get On with Our Lives."

Here are some words of wisdom that have touched my heart tonight:

"Most of us do not seek or even welcome dramatic changes. But change is an essential part of life’s experiences."

"Too often we are reluctant to enter the next stage, begin the next challenge. Maybe we are too comfortable, fearful, or lacking in faith. Grandmother’s lap is often more comfortable than the trials of kindergarten. Our parents’ basement, with unlimited video games, may be more appealing than college, marriage, or a career."

Then, his advice for "moving on" and facing these inevitable challenges:

1. Follow the prophets
2. Keep an eternal perspective
3. Have faith
4. Be of good cheer

I'd like to add one more:

5. Be grateful. I truly believe that gratitude is pretty much the antidote for every challenge.

THERE IS SO MUCH GOOD IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sure someday I will be grateful for this time, as it always seems like I am when I look back on adversity. Most of all because I can say, "Wow. It was a miracle I made it through that."

And thus I can see miracles wrought in my own life.